I've still been very slowly, and somewhat painfully, trying to go through some of her things; I recently encountered her engagement ring that I gave her in February of 2011, and that has made its way onto her altar as well.
Tomorrow, I will go to Seattle, and visit and decorate the niche like I have done each Full Moon's Day since I enshrined her over there. It will be the first time I go just to visit--to sit with her, and leave flowers--without having other business with the funeral home and cemetary; it almost feels a bit weird.
I think I've written before that "I know she's not really there," although I don't know if I was talking about the niche or about my Heart relic. Either way, I want to correct myself. I know she is there. I know this, because I placed her there myself when I Enshrined her. I chose icons to place with her that have strong meaning to me, and therefore hold strong power, even if only for me. Not only is she there, but I am with her, on her side of the glass, because I've also placed powerful icons that represent myself. Now, I'm not going to say her spirit is there 24/7, because I think that would be very boring for her, and she wouldn't like it and so she just wouldn't do it. But when I am there to visit her shrine, our niche, I can feel she is there with me, and I am there in the niche with her, and we are there together.
I'm not completely sure why I'm restricting myself to going there just once a month on or near the Full Moon, but I think it might be that I want to make sure it stays special. If each time, it feels like it's been a little too long, then I won't take those times for granted.