Independence Day

I want to try everything

even though I could fail

even though I could get hurt

even though I might learn it's not right for me

I'll never really know unless I try

I'll never really succeed

if I never really risk failing

I want to push through the low self-worth

find my worth, claim it

cherish it

I want to say yes to friends more

be places I might get asked more

go out with friends more

invite friends more

Dare to throw a party

even though no-one might come

I want to learn to swim

Even though I am scared of the water

Go to the fair

Go to a ball game

Go to a concert

Even though I am scared of the crowds

I want to be with people

who make it feel safe

to risk embarrassing myself

maybe even a little fun

to risk embarrassing myself

People who love me

I don't want to leave

until I've tried everything

even though I could fail

--j.r.m.b

Potential

There is a seed

that is yet to sprout

There is a flower

that is yet to open

There are wings

that are yet to be tested

There is a spark

that is yet to light its flame

There is a spring

that is yet to carve its river

There is a Star

that is yet to become a Sun

O Lord, O Lady, Great Divine

May I have courage, may I have strength

to

let go

and allow

the possibilities

to become

reality

--j.r.m.b.

Anomalous

How silly of me

to have imagined

I belonged someplace

The only place

I have ever felt

I truly belonged

was with my Joanne

but now

she is

gone.

Mourningstar

I am the Mountain

I am strong, resolute

I am immovable, unshakeable

I am the higher ground

I am the shelter from the storm.

yet do those who take shelter in me

know of the smoldering fire deep inside?

I am the Fire

I am the candle, I am the lamp

I am the hearth, I am the forge

I am purifying, sustaining

I am the warmth that brings comfort.

yet if I break my bonds, only ashes shall remain

in the wake of the firestorm

I am the Storm

I am the lightning and the thunder

I am the wind and the rain

I am the rage and the fury

I am the dreadful Hand of God.

yet life spreads behind me in my wake

from my waters of life and energies of rebirth

--Jes'arra Mourningstar

Elemental

I am the water

freely flowing

bubbling along

soothing, refreshing

healing

life-giving

but what about when

going with the flow

is wrong?

My world is rocked

waves crash

back and forth

out of control

need to stop the waves

need to hold my ground

but my ground

is not there
to hold.

Water can be strong

Water can be like the ground

But only if it is very cold

frozen

I can be the ice
but being cold is painful too

and the world hates the ice

it chips away at it

tries to break it

melt it

Is this my choice?

Be swept along with the waves

or be the glacier of ice?

Maybe someday the storm will die down

maybe the waves will not crash as hard

and then I can just be the water

freely flowing

bubbling along

--Jeska Moonwillow

Elegy of the Dark

I am the darkness.
Weary.  Jaded.  Irritated.
Bored with the games people play
People are selfish
deceptive

Rage builds
They are worthless
They are parasites
They are vampires
They are evil
They take
And take
And never give
      anything
         at
            all.

The darkness is new
I don't remember choosing it
But how can I flow through a sea
of dark toxins
black poisons
and vile parasites
without getting stained?

So many energies
all of them dark
But which one is mine?
Dread creeps in
I am lost
in a land of vampires.

Dark cannot fight dark
Dark is dark
Dark gets lost in the dark
Dark is not the way

     ...but then...

light must be the way.
light shines through dark
banishes it
vanquishes it

I found my star
it is faint
but I see it
It is shining
it will show the way back
Now my Moon will glow
Soon my Sun will blaze again

Our star is somewhere else's sun
What if my Sun is someone else's Star?

What if they are lost too?
What if they are not dark by choice?
What if they have become parasites
    only to survive?
What if they wished they could find the way
    out of the darkness?
What if they are flailing
    drowning
        in the dark sea
             because they can't
                  find their star?


I will not be the darkness.
I will be the Star.

--Jeska Moonwillow

The Wheel Turns Anew

We give thanks, for the dawn has broken!

The newborn Sun has vanquished the horrible night!

And though winter's chill is still to come,

We are strengthened by its light.

We honor the Morrigan in this time of cold

We welcome Bridghid as she is born anew

We honor the Caelleach and her wisdom of old

And give thanks for the skills given us by Lugh.

--Jeska Moonwillow

The Darkest Longest Night

The moon is new on the Longest Night;

the darkness is complete.

So as we await the Yule morn's light

we retreat to our hearth for heat.

We ask Your blessing on our flame,

that it last till the Night is done,

And we give thanks for the blessings we have

as we await the sun.

--Jeska Moonwillow